So It's been a while

I am still on the diet. I have been cheating a bit. I take Fri & Sun off so I can feel normal. During those times I don't really feel normal. I really wanna lose the pounds, I just need a slice of pizza now and then. Although I have cheated I have kept the 12 pounds off and I have switched to the regular diet and it is not so bad. Lots of seeds, nuts and avocados(mmm....guac) but I have also realised that I need to play. Yes play like I used to when I was running around and skateboarding and biking and just generally having fun. Does anyone remember when they were at about age 15 and what your day consisted of in the summer? It was running around all day trying to find some fun thing to do. If you didn't find some thing fun you spent about 5 hours looking for it and 5 hours trying to make something up. All I am saying is look to what made you happy back then and try to go do it. --WHO CARES IF YOU LOOK LIKE A FOOL!-- I now have a skateboard and an interest in yard work. I can tell you that if I don't lose a pound I will still be a lot happier and that can't hurt. Unless of course I break my hip whilst skateboarding & bruise my ego. I promise to write more in the future (again). I am just at a time in my life where I tend to worry and think too much. Not a midlife crisis but more of a crossroads of sorts.
This week listening to : Guided by Voices-Amusements...: Rush-Show Of Hands & Stephen Curtis Chapman- self titled
I miss my Memphis family- I have realised I don't really miss Memphis as much except for the BBQ, my friends and the music & the funkiness & the low rent, & the black folks ( not a lot around here) & the feeling that something great can happen any time, & the churches that still have a message not derived from a book the pastor read yesterday that I saw on CBN 2 weeks ago. Mostly I miss the closeness of family, cousins, uncles, aunts and all manner of kinfolk---whether I like em or not---whether they like me or not. I sure would love a great big family picnic right about now.
I gotta go to bed but the family vacation might be coming together as I speak. I'll holla at ya later.
XOXO
SF